It's in the water baby...
…de varah
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Imi amintesc cum unele slagare romanesti povestesc despre vara asta ca o sa mi fac de cap, ca o sa ma indragostesc, ca o sa ma lase batranii la mare, ca o sa o fac lata si lunga si o s-o calc in picioare si asa mai departe. Intr-adevar, cata filosofie se afla sub vorbele astea chicioase. Ganditi-va putin, ce face romanu’ vara. Se duce la mare, isi ia un trist concediu de 5 pana la 15 zile in care se duce sa uite de servici sau ce mai are el, numai ca saracu’ se duce sa se relaxeze da’ nu reuseste pentru ca se imbata sau cine stie ce mai face si se intoarce la servici si mai obosit. Drept urmare cred ca eu sunt singura cu mintea intacta din toata tara caci eu si anume nu am avut concediu in aceasta vara.
Frustrant. Enervat. Plin de stres, ca sa citez in continuare. Dar oricum, eu am senzatia ca vara este cel mai stresant anotimp din unele puncte de vedere. Caci vrei sa faci ceva, orice, vrei sa scapi de caldura… mai ales daca stai intr-o metropola ca asta in care daca nu ai aer conditionat esti terminat, rade si trotuarul de tine… Si se afunda papucii in acest superb trotuar caci si el a luat-o razna si parca e foc peste tot. Groaznic. Uneori chiar ma gandesc sa ma mut acasa caci vara Bucurestiul e cel mai mare dusman al oamenilor. Cred ca si el vrea sa mearga undeva unde e mai racoare, unde e briza sau zapada sau ceva..
Si eu. Dar se pare ca momentan n-am nicio sansa. M-am cam ras eu de oamenii care isi dau licenta in iulie, dar parca e si mai si in septembrie. Sincer, nu am niciun chef de a da aceasta licenta si as prefera sa ma culc in seara asta si sa ma trezesc pe 20 septembrie. Se poate? 
Cu o singura exceptie. Astept ziua de 22 august. A se observa de ce mai jos:
So, waiting is my job.
Sfarsit de capitol
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Azi e 15 iunie 2009. Acum cinci ani eram fericita ca am scapat de liceu, mi-era frica de ce-o sa urmeze, simteam exuberanta de a fi scapat de profesorii care mi-au chinuit orele lungi de la 8 pana la 15 si de colegele care vorbeau de machiaj si fuste noi si vechi. Acum, dupa 5 ani, pe 15 iunie ii zic la multi ani sora-mii si ma uit asa la ce am mai facut de atunci. Am luat bacul. Am intrat la facultate. Acum termin facultatea. Pot sa zic ca sunt fericita ca am scapat de facultate, ca mi-e teama de ce o sa urmeze, ca simt exuberanta de a fi scapat de profesori si de colegele care vorbesc de bamboo si ultima rochie de la zara. Ce vreau sa zic de fapt? Liceul nu se termina niciodata. Traim intr-un continuu liceu. Mergem la scoala, care se poate transcrie in facultate/serviciu, avem profesori care ne freaca la cap – a se citi sefi, dupa scoala insa avem drumul nostru in care incercam sa evitam fetele care vorbesc de zara. Vrem sa plecam dar ne intoarcem mereu din drum datorita faptului ca “sunt un om serios, cu un job”, si prejudecatile ne tin legati de maini si de picioare, pe unii mai mult, pe unii mai putin.
Vad oameni care pleaca din tara, cautand alte taramuri cu oameni mai buni si fara sefi, dar e ca si cum ar face ceea ce facem si noi aici. Cu totii ne cautam fericirea, unii mai aproape, unii mai departe. Si mereu o sa ne intrebam atunci cand avem o despartire de drumuri, daca mergem pe drumul din stanga oare ce s-ar intampla pe drumul din dreapta acum. Ca si atunci cand te desparti de cineva, te intrebi.. oare ce s-ar fi intamplat daca as fi ramas cu persoana respectiva? As fi ajuns un om mai bun sau e mai bine ca am luat-o pe drumul asta?
Concluzia este ca mereu o sa iti doresti sa fii un om mai bun. Insa toatele stereotipurile din liceu or sa te urmareasca. Poate nu esti destul de slab, de popular, de puternic sau de viteaz.
Liceul ne pregateste pentru viata, pentru ca e primul contact cu viata ca atare. Nu e asa ca acum ti-ai dori sa mai fii in liceu?
Chestia asta are o singura insemnatate. Vrei sa fii altceva, altcineva, sa te defineasca alte caracteristici. Dar eu cred in viata de dupa liceu. Asa ca daca vrei sa fii altcineva, poti sa fii. Dar cand ajungi acasa cine esti?
Cand dai jos toate mastile impuse de societate, te vezi pe tine. Asa ca azi cand ai sa pleci de la serviciu spre casa, opreste-te in fata oglinzii. Mai esti cel din liceu?
Cronica de mai… mult
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Se pare ca, desi unii considera ca minimalismul este la mare cautare, toata lumea vrea mai mult si mai mult si mai mult pana o sa explodeze si ultimul neuron care i-a ramas. Mai mult zgomot, mai mult alcool, mai multa prostie. Anul trecut, nu mai tin minte daca pe vremea asta sau mai spre vara, ziceam ca nu am sa vizitez vama si anul asta. Nu m-am tinut de promisiune.
E ca o fosta dragoste pe care iti place s-o revizitezi pentru ca a fost bine cat a durat si nu vrei sa te eliberezi de ea pentru ca nu ai sti unde s-o apuci prima oara. Daca nici eu nu stiu ce inseamna asta, atunci cine? Ideea e ca in masochismul asta care ma caracterizeaza (si nu numai pe mine), uit anumite treburi. Cum ar fi ca fosta mea dragoste acum mai nou si-o trage cu toata lumea si e cam tarfa. Si ca mai nou prefera cocalarii care arunca cu bere in cei care au revenit aici doar ca sa stie cum e sa respiri marea. Prefera jeepurile pline de manelisti (nu am nimic cu jeepurile, ci cu interiorul lor). Prefera cluburile zgomotoase cu nicio melodie care sa iti placa. Prefera fetele de 14 ani care fac felatii pe plaja.
Dupa parerea mea, vama se sinucide de tristete, si inainte sa moara mai face niste chestii care sa te faca pe tine sa te indepartezi cu mai putin regret de ea.
Inca am mai vazut oameni care stau pe plaja ca sa asculte marea, dar sunt mai multi aia care vor sa faca marea sa ii asculte pe ei.
Poate ca o mare bordura in mijlocul plajei ar fi trebuit sa ma faca sa plec din prima clipa. De ce nu am plecat? Poate voiam si eu sa ma sinucid odata cu plaja, cu chitarile, cu vantul, cu corturile, cu linistea. Ele au reusit, iar eu sper ca la anul sa imi ucid tendinta asta dubioasa de a ma intoarce numai ca sa zic a doua zi : nu mai merg niciodata in vama veche!
Drifting along
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Melodia saptamanii :
Lyrics:
Nowhere to go
But I’ll still be cruising
I live this life long
Long long time
You know I’m drifting along
Can’t see where I’m going
I will get to my destination
I’m feeling the pressure
All around me crumble
But I won’t be put down this time
I’m shifting along
Though I sing a sweet song
We’ll murder in the streets where I be livin’
I’m closing my eyes
Don’t want to see killin’
Gentle giants will roam forever
I’m cruising the street
Wondering who I will meet
Oh love has got to
Reign in our world
La la la la
La la la la
I don’t know where I am going to
La la la la
La la la la
I don’t know where I am going to
Drifting along
Drifting along
Closing up my ears
to the sound
I don’t want to hear crying
Poezia lunii
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Nothing but death There are cemeteries that are lonely, graves full of bones that do not make a sound, the heart moving through a tunnel, in it darkness, darkness, darkness, like a shipwreck we die going into ourselves, as though we were drowning inside our hearts, as though we lived falling out of the skin into the soul. And there are corpses, feet made of cold and sticky clay, death is inside the bones, like a barking where there are no dogs, coming out from bells somewhere, from graves somewhere, growing in the damp air like tears of rain. Sometimes I see alone coffins under sail, embarking with the pale dead, with women that have dead hair, with bakers who are as white as angels, and pensive young girls married to notary publics, caskets sailing up the vertical river of the dead, the river of dark purple, moving upstream with sails filled out by the sound of death, filled by the sound of death which is silence. Death arrives among all that sound like a shoe with no foot in it, like a suit with no man in it, comes and knocks, using a ring with no stone in it, with no finger in it, comes and shouts with no mouth, with no tongue, with no throat. Nevertheless its steps can be heard and its clothing makes a hushed sound, like a tree. I'm not sure, I understand only a little, I can hardly see, but it seems to me that its singing has the color of damp violets, of violets that are at home in the earth, because the face of death is green, and the look death gives is green, with the penetrating dampness of a violet leaf and the somber color of embittered winter. But death also goes through the world dressed as a broom, lapping the floor, looking for dead bodies, death is inside the broom, the broom is the tongue of death looking for corpses, it is the needle of death looking for thread. Death is inside the folding cots: it spends its life sleeping on the slow mattresses, in the black blankets, and suddenly breathes out: it blows out a mournful sound that swells the sheets, and the beds go sailing toward a port where death is waiting, dressed like an admiral. Pablo Neruda
Un fel de caracterizare directa (sau “recunosc ca…”)
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Am vazut asta la David si mi-a placut ideea.
So, until now I’ve….
00) Bolded the things I’ve done in the following list
01) Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02) Swam with wild dolphins
03) Climbed a mountain
04) Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05) Been inside the Great Pyramid
06) Held a tarantula.
07) Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08) Said ‘I love you’ and meant it
09) Hugged a tree
10) Done a striptease
11) Bungee jumped
12) Visited Paris
13) Watched a lightning storm at sea
14) Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise
15) Seen the Northern Lights
16) Gone to a huge sports game
17) Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18) Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19) Touched an iceberg
20) Slept under the stars
21) Changed a baby’s diaper
22) Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23) Watched a meteor shower
24) Gotten drunk on champagne
25) Given more than you can afford to charity
26) Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27) Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28) Had a food fight
29) Bet on a winning horse
30) Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
31) Asked out a stranger
32) Had a snowball fight
33) Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34) Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35) Held a lamb
36) Enacted a favorite fantasy
37) Taken a midnight skinny dip
38) Taken an ice cold bath
39) Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40) Seen a total eclipse
41) Ridden a roller coaster
42) Hit a home run
43) Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44) Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45) Adopted an accent for an entire day
46) Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47) Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48) Had two hard drives for your computer
49) Visited all 50 states of USA
50) Loved your job for all accounts
51) Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52) Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53) Had amazing friends
54) Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55) Watched wild whales
56) Stolen a sign
57) Backpacked in Europe
58) Taken a road-trip
59) Rock climbing
60) Lied to foreign government’s official in that country to avoid notice
61) Midnight walk on the beach
62) Sky diving
63) Visited Ireland
64) Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
65) In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
66) Visited Japan
67) Benchpressed your own weight
68) Milked a cow
69) Alphabetized your records
70) Pretended to be a superhero
71) Sung karaoke
72) Lounged around in bed all day
73) Posed nude in front of strangers
74) Scuba diving
75) Got it on to “Let’s Get It On” by Marvin Gaye
76) Kissed in the rain
77) Played in the mud
78) Played in the rain
79) Gone to a drive-in theater
80) Done something you should regret, but don’t regret it
81) Visited the Great Wall of China
82) Discovered that someone who’s not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83) Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84) Started a business
85) Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86) Toured ancient sites
87) Taken a martial arts class
88) Sword fought for the honor of a woman
89) Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90) Gotten engaged
91) Been in a movie
92) Crashed a party
93) Loved someone you shouldn’t have
94) Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95) Gotten married
96) Had sex at the office
97) Gone without food for 5 days
98) Made cookies from scratch
99) Won first prize in a costume contest
100) Ridden a gondola in Venice
101) Gotten a tattoo
102) Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103) Gotten divorced
104) Been on television news programs as an “expert”
105) Got flowers for no reason
106) Masturbated in a public place
107) Got so drunk you don’t remember anything
108) Taken illegal drugs
109) Performed on stage
110) Been to Las Vegas
111) Recorded music
112) Eaten shark
113) Had a one-night stand
114) Gone to Thailand
115) Seen Siouxsie live
116) Bought a house
117) Been in a combat zone
118) Buried one/both of your parents
119) Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off
120) Been on a cruise ship
121) Spoken more than one language fluently
122) Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123) Bounced a check
124) Performed in Rocky Horror
125) Read – and understood – your credit report
126) Raised children
127) Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128) Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129) Created and named your own constellation of stars
130) Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131) Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132) Called or written your Congress person
133) Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134) …more than once? – More than twice?
135) Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136) Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
137) Had an abortion or your female partner did
138) Had plastic surgery
139) Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
140) Wrote articles for a large publication
141) Lost over 100 pounds
142) Held someone while they were having a flashback
143) Piloted an airplane
144) Petted a stingray
145) Broken someone’s heart
146) Helped an animal give birth
147) Been fired or laid off from a job
148) Won money on a T.V. game show
149) Broken a bone
150) Killed a human being
151) Gone on an African photo safari
152) Ridden a motorcycle
153) Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100 mph
154) Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155) Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156) Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157) Ridden a horse
158) Had major surgery
159) Had sex on a moving train
160) Had a snake as a pet
161) Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162) Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163) Slept for more than 30 hours
164) Visited lots of foreign countries
165) Visited all 7 continents
166) Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167) Eaten kangaroo meat
168) Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169) Been a sperm or egg donor
170) Eaten sushi
171) Had your picture in the newspaper
172) Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173) Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
174) Gotten someone fired for their actions
175) Gone back to school
176) Parasailed
177) Changed your name
178) Petted a cockroach
179) Eaten fried green tomatoes.
180) Read The Iliad
181) Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read
182) Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183) …and gotten 86?ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184) Taught yourself an art from scratch
185) Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186) Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187) Skipped all your school reunions
188) Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189) Been elected to public office
190) Written your own computer language
191) Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
192) Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193) Built your own PC from parts
194) Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
195) Had a booth at a street fair
196) Dyed your hair
197) Been a DJ
198) Found out someone was going to dump you via blog
199) Written your own role playing game
200) Been arrested
Wow! Am facut o gramada de lucruri. Deci…NU, viata mea nu e plictisitoare!
Vine vine deprimarea
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Mai tineti minte ca v-am zis ceva de primavara mai demult? Nu. Nici eu. Dar cred ca am mai zis oricum… primavara mi se pare cel mai parsiv anotimp. E un anotimp in care azi ploua maine ninge si poimaine faci plaja si a doua zi ploua din nou. E un anotimp in care lumea si natura renaste, pitipoancele incep sa se epileze si sa se imbrace in fuste, tiganii ies la furat, copacii se dezgheata dar nu si mintea oamenilor. E un anotimp atat de frumos incat te deprima. Stiu, e pe invers ce zic eu aici. Dar mereu ceva ce e mai frumos/bun/verde ca ce a fost inainte va fi deprimant. Eu nu ma deprim acum, dar vad ca toti au schimbari dubioase in comportament. Unu’ vrea sa fuga de acasa unde vede cu ochii, unu’ se cearta cu toti copiii din curtea scolii, unu’ vrea sa invete suomi sau cum sa programeze un server sau cum sa fie altfel.
E ca si cum te loveste o palma imensa peste fata si iti lasa niste urme care te ard si iti urla in urechi : fa dracului ceva! altceva! pentru ca oricum in restul timpului nu faci nimic..
Asa ca o sa ne apucam cu totii de suomi si de fugit de acasa, nu neaparat in ordinea asta. Eu o sa ma apuc de stat degeaba in pat si o sa ascult problemele oamenilor (stiu ca la psiholog pacientul sta intins dar daca ma ridic s-ar putea sa ametesc). Plus ca psihologii sunt proprii lor pacienti.
Apropo de chestia asta. Am senzatia ca atunci cand ai un job, o profesie, o meserie ai doua alternative. Ori te confunzi cu ea ori faci exact invers. Daca esti salahor sau ma rog oricum pe acolo sigur o sa ti spuna cineva “dorele”, daca esti medic esti mereu bolnav, daca esti dermatolog o sa ai iritatii sau chelie, daca esti dentist o sa ai dintii naspa, daca esti barman esti betiv…. I think I have made my point.
Eu astept vara…
Insa acum, in memoria celei ce a fost :
(asta pentru ca asta e preferata mea)
Si pentru ca portia de cultura sa fie completa:
Primăvară inutilă
Sufocată de viaţa cu program
Şi de-acelaşi “va urma” cotidian
Al savanţilor cu barbă, cu şoşoni şi ochelari -
Pedagogi şi profesori octogenari
De algebră, geografie şi pian -
Primăvara
A izbit cu pumnu-n geam
Şi-a fugit din pension
De la “Notre-Dame de Sion”.
I-am citit isprava-n calendar
Şi-am pornit îndată după ea
S-o-ntâlnesc în Cişmigiu
Sau la Şosea,
Cum făceam alt’dată-n fiecare an,
Când eram şi eu ca ea – un licean
Cu frecvenţa cursurilor pe… trotuar…
Dar de data asta, nu ştiu cum,
N-am dat nici măcar de urma ei pe drum….
Poate n-am mai cunoscut-o eu…
Poate drumul ei şi drumul meu
S-au schimbat de mult,
Şi-acum
Nu mai fac acelaşi drum…
Sau pe drumul de la Ateneu
Până la Şosea
Şi hipodrom
Primăvara n-a-ntâlnit în capitală nici un om
Să-i ureze ca pe vremuri “bun sosit”.
Şi probabil că de ciudă în oglindă s-a privit,
Şi-a dat seama c-a visat,
C-a spart geamul doar în vis
Şi că visul evadării n-a fost vis adevărat!…
Primăvară, primăvară,
Inutila mea fecioară,
Nu cumva te-ai sinucis?…
I.M.
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- The first thing in the human personality that dissolves in alcohol is dignity.
- Wine is bottled poetry. ~Robert Louis Stevenson
- If you know someone who tries to drown their sorrows, you might tell them sorrows know how to swim.
- You don’t have to be a beer drinker to play darts, but it helps.
- Sometimes when I reflect back on all the beer I drink I feel ashamed. Then I look into the glass and think about the workers in the brewery and all of their hopes and dreams. If I didn’t drink this beer, they might be out of work and their dreams would be shattered. Then I say to myself, it is better that I drink this beer and let their dreams come true than be selfish and worry about my liver. ~Jack Handey
- I feel sorry for people who don’t drink. When they wake up in the morning, that’s as good as they’re going to feel all day. ~Frank Sinatra
- I like to keep a bottle of stimulant handy in case I see a snake, which I also keep handy. ~W.C. Fields
- Without question, the greatest invention in the history of mankind is beer. Oh, I grant you that the wheel was also a fine invention, but the wheel does not go nearly as well with pizza. ~Dave Barry
- Even though a number of people have tried, no one has yet found a way to drink for a living. ~Jean Kerr
- Everybody should believe in something; I believe I’ll have another drink.
- Wine gives a man nothing… it only puts in motion what had been locked up in frost. ~Samuel Johnson
- Bacchus has drowned more men than Neptune. ~Giuseppe Garibaldi
- Beer is the cause and solution to all of life’s problems. ~Homer Simpson
- My grandmother is over eighty and still doesn’t need glasses. Drinks right out of the bottle. ~Henny Youngman
- I have taken more out of alcohol than alcohol has taken out of me. ~Winston Churchill
- Health – what my friends are always drinking to before they fall down. ~Phyllis Diller
- How come if alcohol kills millions of brain cells, it never killed the ones that made me want to drink?
- One martini is all right. Two are too many, and three are not enough. ~James Thurber
- If you are young and you drink a great deal it will spoil your health, slow your mind, make you fat – in other words, turn you into an adult. ~P.J. O’Rourke
- Beer is proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy. ~Benjamin Franklin
yumm…
